Portugal - because i'm GOD DAMN excited

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Septemeber 6th 2010...this is where i will be. Carvoeiro in Portugal :).
This is the pool bar, how fabuloussss does it look?! Very, if you ask me. I'm going away with the mother, aunty and cousin Rooooobert :) and i couldnt be more excited!

SUN. SEA. SAND. POOL. BOOZE....um is there anything that could be better? I dont think so. September is going to be one hell of a month. This beautiful looking holiday and then moving into my new house in Worcester :D and thenn a whole WEEK of messiness for freshers week. Perfection.

You know i dont really have a lot else to say.....so i'l leave you with another beautiful picture of the beach i will be lying on in a few weeks time :)




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The Summer Job!

The Green Man!

So this is where i've been working for the past 5/6 weeks now! I havent written a blog for a while and thought The Green Man just about deserved one, to be honest! (However i do go off on a tangent half way through so it isn't all about work lol). Although, obviously, I would much prefer to not have to work at all, i must admit The Green Man is a pretty good place to work. :). I was only working there for about 2 or 3 days before people started talking to me, bantering with me and just generally accepting me. I was working at Tesco for two years and even after that amount of time some people hadn't even bothered to learn my name.
But at The Green Man everyone's so friendly, well...most the time. The boys banter, A LOT, especially when together, but i've learnt as long as you dont take anything that comes out of their mouths seriously...you're pretty much set! ha.

Admittedly i dont really like the pay, but at the end of the day a job is a job and if i'm enjoying it that's all that matters i suppose. In contrast to what i've previously said, there are some days i want to shoot whoever suggested i hand an application in there... :) but then everthing has it's ups and downs i suppose. I've come to learn that work is SO much more fun when the main bosses aren't around, but again, i suppose that's only normal. Or is it? You see i think the way everyone is when the main bosses aren't around is so much better than when they are. Everyone is more relaxed, everyone is happier and if we're happy, the guests are always happy. Smiling isn't as forced, it becomes natural. This is something i feel the managers need to hear, but the day dogs start talking will be the day i say anything to them :).

I've got to admit though, however much fun i'm having at this new job of mine I am absolutely desperate to go back to University!! I miss it. I miss getting drunk near enough every other day of the week! haha - if my dad read this he would have a heartattack! But it's true, i would very much like this next month to hurry on up!!

On a completely different note, I am doing something that i'm absolutely terrified of on Wednesday...(I believe it was on my summer 'ToDo' list!) I couldnt be more scared, i'm such a wimp seen as more than half of the worlds population has already had it done! Oooh hope i haven't given too much away! Will aim to write another blog once it's done. So until wednesday.... :)

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The events of my birthday week!

The reason for no blog in a substantial amount of time? IT WAS MY BIRTHDAAAY!! :). And a lot of events happened in the week that held my birthday. Now, where to start... I guess it all started on monday when i went out for a lovely meal and just had a lovely evening in general. The past was revisted that night. I think i'll leave that one there haha! Tuesday, wow..tuesday. I dont really remember a lot from this night. This was probably due to the fact that i drank my body weight x10 in a short amount of time. I have never felt so sick in all my life! But it was one hell of a night. Admittedly it was a tad dramatic towards the end. A few tears were shed, arguments arose, people stormed off (mainly me). But i thought, and i hope the others thought, that it was still a brilliant night! It also really made me aware of who my real friends are, a cliche i know, but yeah i love every single one of them that was with me until the end! Wednesday i went for a meal with the Father. It was lovely :). THURSDAY.. Thursday was when i went to see the one the only JLS! And if i hear one more comment from a 'macho man' about how "gay" JLS are i swear to god i will not be respnsible for my actions! They were AMAZING! To be completely honest i knew they would be good but still they definately exceeded my expectations. I fell in love with them :). 'Close to you' is my new favourite song. Its lovelyyy, and if a guy ever sang that to me i'd be his eternally :P ha. Anyway moving on to friday. I woke up to my beautiful bestest lying next to me! haha. My mother had put some banners up, bless. Sarah and i went for lunch at Satchwells (mmm) and then went to see Shrek 4 in 3d :) it was lushhhh! A great day!! :D. It made me realise how lucky i am to have met Sarah. This is where it all turns soppy. My 19th birthday was a thousand times better than my 18th (i swear it's supposed to be the other way round). There are many people to thank for this but Sarah did so much for me andd i appreciate it so much. SATURDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! ... Well Saturday was the day of the Midlands Music Festival :). What. A. Day! The Wanted. Scouting for Girls. Alexandra Burke. Olly Murs. The Saturdays andd WESTLIIIIIIIIIIIFE!!! I love westlife, from their 'surfing on our mexican wave' to their version of sex on fire (thrusting an all) to just their plan amazing'ness. I love them!!!! WHAT. A. WEEK!!!!

When you see something that you really want...

Well this is that thing that i really want :). Yes please. I do hope to obtain it when on my shopping spree tomorrow, although, knowing the River Island in the Spa of Leamington, they more than likely will not have it in stock. I would quite like to wear this prettyy little dress into town on tuesday night while getting absolutely trollied for my 19th birthday (which is actually on friday, but yeah!).

Tuesday night, BY THE WAY, i am very excited for. I get to see my two favourite girlies as they are coming from Cov and Dudleyy and i get to see people i havent had chance to catch up with yet...and ones i have :P very happy girlyyy. It's weird. Reconnecting with certain old school friends has made me realise just how much i've missed them, and i most definately can't wait to see them tuesday night. It makes me really happy to know a simple conversation or accidental bump into one another when out can trigger off a reconnectionn :) Aww!

But yes, back to the point, tonight i will be going to bed praying my dress is in our rubbish River Island, haha. If not theres a couple of other dresses i'd quite like too so i'll just have a mooch around other shops, gives me an excuse to stay shopping longer ;). I'll keep you posted! ha.

ALCOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL...a students best friend :P

A beautiful voice

Howie Day...his voice wows me. I love it! It always manages to chill me out and make me smile too =)

Just incase your wandering, i put a lyric one up instead of the actual music video because the lyrics are really good too, and i know it's easy sometimes to listen to a song but not really take in the lyrics...but read the lyrics! :)

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My 'Summer 2010 list'

Yes, i wrote a list. As sad as it may sound. I'm just so fed up of being bored and having nothing to do. I thought writing a list would make me more likely to do the things i want to do. However now i feel slightly less optimistic about the list. Before delving into the why, i will share what's on my list:

Finger paint on a canvas and frame it
Be a 'Yes' girl for the day
Teach myself to actually play my guitar
Do the Shakespeare bike ride - 20 miles, for charity
Fall asleep under the stars
Camp by or on a beach
Go to a festival
Write a song
Watch a sunset
Watch a sunrise
Watch Toy Story 3 in 3D
Re-learn French
Actually DO my Yoga DVD
Write a story
Make a collage
Do something that scares me
Find my "perfect summer 2010 song"
Visit where my nan and grandad's ashes lie
Have a "perfect moment"
Go see Suzie!

It's a great list, i know! Nothing majorly exciting but you know i have a fair few exciting things coming up. This list was made for the days when i'm sat around thinking "wow...this is nice". I reckon i will do most of these things by the end of summer :). Things have been very up and down for me recently and thats why i say i can't see me doing everything. For instance, the "having a perfect moment" one doesnt seem all that likely. Also the guitar one, me and my bloody guitar, we dont get on, i can tell you that much! But i would love to be able to get on with it :).

I feel hugely confused at the moment, i dont know where i am half the time. But i dont want to feel like this. I just want to, go with the flow of life....be a hippy (like my mum used to be haha).

Anyway, back to the list, i will keep you posted on how well i get on with it...however for now i am exhausted, so off to bed i go!

Live. Love. Laugh..unless you've had a shit day, then you can cry =)

I used to write a diary..

I used to write a diary, where i kept all my thoughts and feelings, but i soon realised the moment something went really wrong, or really right for that matter, i would stop writing in it. Weird eh?
My diary held trivial things about boys, want i wanted to be when i was older, and which of my friends had annoyed me that day. The serious stuff, one never really tends to delve into in a diary, well, i never did! Recently i started writing down my thoughts, but not stopping when it hit the serious stuff and i realised just how deep i think sometimes, scary stuff.
After a tiff with someone i know we both discovered just how much 'thinking too much' can affect things. But we all do it? Do we not!

Recently i've been getting hurt by my own feelings. As odd as that may sound. I've always known i care too much, my mum has said as much as it's a possitive attribute of mine it is also by far a negative. Thinking leads to worrying. Worrying about what other people think. Worrying about what other people WILL think when they hear about something that has happened to me.
Who cares. I went round to a friends house the other day (oh how i love her) and she sat me down and fed me some words of wisdom. Something she said was "Why should you live your life by other peoples expectations and by what you think other people want you to do. It's not up to them what you do, it's up to you! It's your life, at the end of the day you are the one who has to live it. So why listen to anyone else. Do what YOU think is right and what makes YOU happy, because that's all that really matters".

She was so right.

We spend too much time caring about what other people think and dont think about what will truly make us happy!

This is my first blog, and i understand that i've rambled on ever so slightly, but it wont all be rambles i promise :). As i go on my quest to make my life ever more exciting i promise my blogs will get more entertaining! Haha. But really, im using this blog as a way of expression, lets face it, drama students like to express themselves! And as or people who want to read, well it will just allow them to really understand the thoughts of the Cherry ;)

Peaaaaaaaaaaaaace out!